My Birthday Wishes

My mobile reminder started ringing and I took the phone and look into the reason why and I fell silent and bit my lip...it was the birthday of my mother...August 29, 2010...I place her details on my phone and simply forgot about the whole thing...and I was caught off-guard...which is why I felt silent...My mom is the kind of mom we always wish to have...kind, happy, loving, caring, sweet,full of life, a strict disciplinarian, a fabulous cook in our kitchen. She may have been uneducated with only primary school in her educational stint but I learned the best morals from her on generosity, kindness, forgiveness, on justice, on what is right or wrong, why not to cheat or be lying, on telling the truth, and on the many examples on hardships we experience with her and you never hear her complaining or her woes..our family was not dirt poor but My mom came from a really dirt poor family where they did not even have flip flops...and our economic status was not entirely middle class we were more on the lower...lowest middle class...we were always wanting for more and there was never enough for six growing brothers...In fact she even had to raise hogs to put us all through school because there wasn't enough money...I knew she suffered in silence...and I have many misgivings to her as a son...and I was not the most ideal "good" son at all...no matter how I try not to be "bad"...She is supposed to be 78 years old now...But we lost her in 1982...and I never had a chance to prove to her that I could be the person she has always wanted me to be...I love you dearly mom...and I miss you...